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Remember when you were young and you had that image of what adult life would be like. What kind of house you would live in, what kind of car you would drive, where you would go with your friends. Have you ever went back and tried to see how it turned out for you? What is it about adults that makes it impossible for things to ever be that simple again. Why cant we believe that anything can be possible? It's like when you grow up there is this short in your brain that says that all you once dreamt about is no longer valid because your an adult and things are done diffrently. it is kind of sickening to be placed in the inbetween. I mean Im 25 years old, Im at that point where you begin to feel that time crunch, I constantly think about all the things that im supposed to have done up to this point according to what the standards are. Everyone my age has that fear, like oh my god, pretty soon im going to have to settle down, work a job and spit out some babies. It drives me nuts. Ya know 25 is not that old. I didnt even really figure out what I wanted to do with my life until I was like 23, at that point I was expected to have finsihed collage and starting a career, but now here I am at 25 and I am still in collage and I just changed my major to start all over again. Perhaps it may have been a trigger to that youth that I refuse to let go of, but I just dont see the point in contiuing with a career that is going to bore me to death just because im behind on the adult chart. As for the settling down, Im sorry but how in the world are you supposed to know what kind of man you want to spend the rest of your life with? I have enough trouble trying to figure out what to have for breakfast because im supposed to be in the prime of my life and all that nonesense and im suppsosed to be perfectly shaped so some man out there will sweep me off my feet, marry me and make me a baby making machine. Well, I just cant deal with this conformity. Why do I have to be at a certain level, like life is some sort of video game and you have to complete tasks to advance. I was perfectly happy day dreaming in the clouds before the ticking of the clock sounded in my ears. As for the whole kid thing, Im independant and pay my own way, but right now that is all I can deal with, and im not comfortable being someone who has to rely on the government for help because lets face it, in this econmy, having kids is too much on your bank book. I mean no disrespect to those out there that have government help, I totally understand it is hard and you need help, Im just saying that I would rather get through school and get that big job first, well thats the plan anyway. So whats the meaning of all this, well, I think that things happen for people the way they are meant to and that with all the stress bouncing around in the world we shouldnt be worring about having certain things at certain times, who cares how old you are, or if you finished school or if you have kids early or if your not married. Dont play into the hype, just live your life like you did when you were a kid, when you just felt secure that everything would be okay. I know we all grow up, and we cant always have our heads in the clouds, but dont let that part of you fully die, dont let the standards of success passed down for generations make you feel like your wasting away or make you feel low. Be you, Do you and everything will work out. Im 25, and Im in collage about to start all over, Im not married, I dont have kids, I dont own a home yet and no I dont even have a dog...WHO CARES, Im okay with it, and hell one day i will graduate and get that job, one day I will get married...a long..long time from now, and yeah I might pop out a couple carbin copies...but if all that doesnt happen until Im 40, then so be it. Age is a number with only a value in years, and not in success...remember that. Live to your own standards and screw the shoulds and shouldnt's!