To my friends....

If one more person asks me when I'm going to settle down I'm going to box them clean in the ears! I get it okay, I grew up in a small town, they have their own way of doing things, but lets review shall we......

1_ I have always been the last one to make the leap...remember... late bloomer over here!...does it really surprise you that im taking my sweet time. Havent I done that with every major decision in my life? I will make the move...someday. hey man, im like a fine wine..only gets better with age....yessss lame I know..maybe thats why im not marriage material lol....seee hopeless hehehehehehehehehehehe.

2_ remember that girl in the corner...you know the quite wall flower....yeah that was me!!!!!!!!!! news flash Im fricken shy, so no I dont just walk up to dudes and bat my eyelashes like some barbie doll on crack. I have my own way of doing things. soo yeah sometimes I can get more flirty with a couple drinks...but do you really think some dude you push me at in a bar that i couldnt even speak to in daylight is going to be a husband canadate....um Im a little worried about where your little experiments are going. And for the record ladies...I would like to pick out my own hubby...just for future reference...after all im the one that would have to see him everyday.

3_ when have I ever been known to do normal things? um....NEVER! How many times has one of you said that im odd or that I was born during the wrong time...or what the hell planet are you on...all of these sentences dont add up to betty crockers credentials....and when have I ever chosen the normal plans? I do things half ass backwards...sorry cant help it...im weird lol....so knowing im weird...why is it sooo weird that im not hitched...I dont think its weird lol.

I know in your eyes Im an old spinster...but people...27 isent old! I dont care what you say about supposive ticking clocks or whatever..I wasnt born with any ticking noises and I have yet to hear any so I think im good on all that. Why cant I enjoy all your little rugrats and give them back later, I think that is a totally sweet arrangement and im happy with it. Im not home crying into my pillow at night either, I dont feel sad because I dont have a date to get to and Im certainally not wasting my life because I dont have a husband at home. I have a cat, he seems like enough to handle at this point. Im totally fine with how things are, I like living alone. And I think that deep down...all of you...at some point would want to come home to a quite place where there are no kids screaming...no husbands to care for...just you and your things...and guess what!...you will get that one day...when the kids are off to school and your husbands are golfing! ANd you know what, Im not going to be knocking on your door telling you that you better go adopt some kid and call your husband home for dinner, im just going to smile and say...its nice huh...because I EXCEPT WHATEVER YOU CHOOSE IN YOUR LIFE. Your standards and your wants make you happy, you have babies and husbands because you were meant to, because thats what you wanted. I want things to, yeah and I know I will regret this later, sure I want a family to. BUT...not until I want it for myself at some point of time in my life. Im not any different then I was then, the sailor mouth thing is a little tamer depending on certain situations lol, and Im not a total dare devil these days.....annnnd im in one spot more that two seconds...so thats something. The point im trying to make hear ladies is, Im fine...I like my life. I dont need to be set up on stupid blind dates...first off if it was a good thing why is it called a blind date? Anyway, we will talk about that later. I dont need to meet your husbands dentist or work buddy or whatever. I got this, so relax, and lay off would ya. I love ya to death but I swear you drive me bat shit insane! Whew I need a drink!

Age aint nothing but a number baby!

I know that every person comes to a point where adulthood hits them and they realize that life is more than half way over. I know that this can be a depressing thought. I admitt I have had a few dark days about it. But when I think about it, I know that I have a lot more ahead of me to do and I have learned a lot in my lifetime. I wouldnt want to go back to childhood even tho it would be nice to not have any responsiblities or bills or obligations, but where is the freedom to go and do as you please? When your a kid you dont have much of a say and you have no control over what you can and cant do without asking someone first. The thought of doing that again infurriates me, I dont know I managed to live through it the first time. Then there are all the changes in your body and school and all the problems that come with highschool...yuck! No thank you Im very glad to be out of that mess. Sometimes I secretly wish that I could be an infant again, where all I did was sleep and eat and someone else did everything for me. And then I think about not being able to move or speak or to go to the damn bathroom in peace. So thats out. I wouldnt mind going back through my early twenties so I could change a few things but thats only because Im older now and I already made my mistakes. IF I didnt know then what I know now I dont know if I would have done things differently. I have had enough of struggles and heartache, so once again I think I will skip those years to. I know I have a few more years before I hit thirty, and trust me...Im not rushing it!! But the closer I get to it the more I hear about it. They say that your thirties are a lot calmer, that your more sure of yourself, and that things are a lot better. I sincerlly hope that is true because I cant not wait to be out of this hot mess. I bet I will probably have a small melt down when I do actually hit thirty but for the most part, im looking forward to what the new years will offer me. I believe that age is what you make of it. If you feel old and act old then you will be old. If you feel young and act young then I think that you will be a lot younger in mind, body and spirt. Age is only a number, if you concentrate too much on it, then you focus on all the wrong things and you miss out on what is right under your nose. So for all of you out there that have that mid-life crisis thing going on...take a deep breath and remember...every new year is a new start. Think of what you can do and what you have learned and dont focus so much on age itself. Free your mind of the ticking clock and live your life, because I think that we all know how short it really can be. Make what you have the best and in the end you will be satisfied.